November 22, 2022
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By: Shalom-Enoch Yessuff
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Life goes on
We lift our chins and mend our bonds.
We enlighten our spirits
and then pretend to be strong
and hopefully after long
the pretending will be gone.
I suppose that life goes on,
we just gotta adapt and respawn.
A matter of right and wrong
belongs to us moving along
living beyond what’s far gone.
Paralyzed on the floor
how earth could I respond
At a loss for words
just stuck upon the song
Titled “Staying Alive”
Irony had dawned
and risen upon the horizon
leaving me as a pawn
questioning his being.
While being in a state of disorientation
thoughts in condensation
but void of contemplation.
What is going on
What is this unforgiving sensation?
Losing someone you love
is such a confusing situation
asking all the questions
you don’t wanna take it into consideration.
The denial sets in
that comes without hesitation
but the truth leaks in your doubts
and then begins all the aching
both physical and spiritual,
emotions are lost with your patience.
You can’t pretend not to feel
but you cannot feel, you hate this;
But there’s no way to escape this
You just have to face this.
He’s gone and his name was Brayden,
a noble man with no patience
Since day one of school
we ran together through our races
you always finished first
now hold my seat I know you’re waiting
One day we’ll be together
but for now my dreams are taping
I will take all your stories
and I’ll make spin-offs for the ages
and when my time comes
I’ll be remembered for my pages
I’ll be a billionaire
with a smile that was contagious
This life here is outrageous
Shout to my brother Justin
Stew finna make his pro debut
it was only yesterday
when we were ballin out brand new
sweating rocks at the park
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What else was there to do
and now I see my bro in his groove
he not just making big moves
he moves with a big attitude,
the type of energy that got you knowing
his movie is coming out soon
this life stuff happened so soon
Lord knows I can’t complain
after all that I have gained.
My mind wants Him to explain
but now I know that’ll be in vain.
There are some things we cannot change.
Even though it drives us insane
even though we feel all the pain
we have to float with the yin and yang.
Step by step and left then right
I know that we can do it if we pray
I’m never lost as the map, call me cap
I know that I can do this all day
I just got different colors in my veins
in the past few years. It's changed.
As I sought to find myself
as I learned to spell my name
I’ve come to respect myself more
and look upon my peers in shame.
Why do we say that we’ll be there
and then there’s no love to be obtained.
Why do we suffer in total silence
and ignore those who share the pain
I mean how could we complain.
I don’t get it, could someone explain
My bro passed not long ago
I’m still tryna make sure that I’m sane.
We played when we were twelve
and then till college we still trained
we lost some crew along the way
the boys from school I’ll spare the names.
We tried the senior trip
before we went off in separate ways.
We attempted one last chat
in group chat.
We typed and sat and no one came.
We dusted our feet and said goodbye.
We still had each other in this game.
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Life is a fickle sport
can’t let people go and come in vain.
When we all got the news
suddenly everyone’s intentions change.
Why are you upset he’s gone
when you didn’t plan to see him anyways?
Please excuse my mind
I know I’m not alone in this loss.
Please excuse my thoughts
I just need to vent out what I got.
It’s not just a brother that’s gone
I feel this has a greater cost.
The aftermath of the episode
has left me facing what I have fought.
It was my one last fear.
I thought I would never get caught
from the downsides of this path
of this whole journey to the top.
I spent my days alone before
some things changed but that has not
I used to have anxiety
about being left out the whole lot.
Just another immigrant boy that’s
frozen out of this melting pot,
but as you grow you learn.
I learned I’m more that what I got
I got 42 bucks in my account
but I’m more than what I bought.
I gotta have a rich spirit.
Yeah I’m just cruising on my yacht
feet in water, head in stars.
How on Earth could my essence ever rot?
This is all that I fought for;
This is everything that I’m pursuing.
Like Phineas in the backyard,
Bella asks me what I’m doing.
I said I’m that I’m recruiting.
While building off our Earth’s ruins
I’m on GOD’s squad now.
soon they’ll all say that they knew me.
I’m special like Jose Mou,
You know we vibing in shine or snow.
My ego stronger everyday
feeling Bryan but I talk like Stewie.
Plotting out my world scheme.
It’s total madness how I’m moving.
RIP Chadwick.
Ima keep the panther grooving
RIP Jahseh.
I’ll never stop making music
RIP Mac.
My life view will stay amusing.
RIP Brayden Autry.
RIP Braybug.
RIP Rooney.